What I feel today? Inevitable.

Put aside all the insecurities, cause someone just had a chill pill. Nobody puts you into that state of envy-ness until someone did. Hmm thought that this year could be a exciting year to endure with, but it turned out to be otherwise.

Passion has always been the thought for me when I’m in school, learning my favorite subject. But the world does not only revolve around that. Responsibility has been a task for me to endure as I have to take care of many things; currently my paternal granddad.

Friends’ around me. Classmates has been loyal to me since the first week of starting of school term, namely, Faris, Guo Hui, Zachary, Weifeng and Zhen Wei. Whatsapp back then is as quiet as a graveyard. But now, us as a group become quite noisy, with all meme posting and all those stuff. Ex classmates/schoolmates just come and go…. Sometime without notice.

All I know about today is, something that had gone missing. Finding around does not meet the objective, but let it appear on it’s own. It’s back and will continue to haunt me years to come, if I had no chance at all. I know that hoping everything at it’s best won’t turned out to be as expected, but at least, I do make some effort. Maybe it’s indirect. But the strong feeling was truly unavoidable.

Only 3 things , well 4 actually, is currently my weekly cycle.

Family > School > Mosque activities > My own past time

When it comes to school holidays, mosque has been my 2^nd home to spend some time on. Be it religious activities or just chit-chatting (bermanfaat ah haha) . Aside from family issues, I’m still struggling to stand on my two feet.

Ustaz Mahyudin has been the best motivator to me. Even he ain’t the Youth Development Officer at the Mosque anymore, he still care about the organization, which is called syabab. To cut it short, he has been the best advisor for the organization. Priceless moments with him is just, memorable. He’s the one who called me ‘ayat’ apart from my circle of family.

Well, that’s all for me. Throughout this post, there is a hidden message. Got psychic powers?  You just figured that out. HAHA :P till then.

Wow, it’s been awhile since I had a proper blog post. Hehe ;)