After so long. Hehe

Nah. Here you go. Readers do deserve my longest blog post due to unforeseen circumstances.  Hahaha. Actually today I just feel like blogging. So yeah. First thing's first, pardon my nonsense if I spurt so much of it during blogging. My emotions took the toll after a tsunami of heartbreaks and 'free guy' mode being turned off. It may sound not so good but I changed quite a lot after awhile.

Maybe I just knew you one and a half years back. but I sense there's something more to it. I hate to say this but I may not be perfect guy for you.

Lost for words when you start worry about me. Ada hikmahnya knp org jauh tu tinggalkan aku. Rupanya digantikan dgn org yg lebih baik lagi. Hehehe.

I dont know lah if the movie we watched a few months ago was a date (Perasan eh aku). Hah. I really want to get to know you more. I should have the guts to her what I really wanna tell. I don't want to throw my hint to other friends. Not even nafeesah. Haha.

That's all I have to say today. Haha so short right. Cos I'm on the bus doing what other guys wouldn't normally do. Till then.

Swag Partner. Wow.

Unexpected, but my gut feelings proved it. Welcome to someone's new chapter of life, filled with malicious words that are even worse than a pure-bred academic (secular) student. Man I feel so ashamed that you dare to have such attitude. To make things worse, including some "religous" sides of you. Full of expensive, "fashionist" crap. You're goddamn lucky to have that guy entertain the crap out of you. You know why I didn't have that so-called "LEVEL OF SWAGNESS"? Because I don't have that "westernised" attitude.

Nak balas balik? Tengok cermin sendiri.

Morning!

Had a great day yesterday. Canon Photomarathon 2012 was a stepping stone for me towards my photographic journey. How I feel amongst all the participants? Hmm, how am I suppose to feel good about myself if most of them are carrying big ass DSLRs? To my knowledge, my digital camera has more disadvantages apart from being good outdoors.

There are three themes provided by the event to make it more challenging. "Wonder" is the first theme. What I took was this.

Second one is titled, "Harmony"......... and come to think of it, it is ironic to associate with birds..

The third and the last one, titled "Pleasure". Emotions said  it all.

Learnt alot from this event, from knowing your mistakes and make your most out of it. So thankful that school gives us a chance to be be competitive with the amateurs out there. Simply said, the amateurs are way better than us in terms of concept, definition and the presentation..

"Photography is a lifelong experience."

Never mind, it'll be held every year... Gonna improve my skills man! hahaha... 

Till then, Happy Birthday to you. :)

Ceh da 16 tahun seh..

All the best in your major exams....

Make your parents proud aite! 

As you always said to me "Jangan putus asa.."

I'll strive for my dreams

even it's getting tougher

Okay enough of the emotions... Hahaha :) 

  

Hectic day today...

Makin boring eh hidup. Memang. Kawan pun macam biskut, sekejap ada, sekejap tak ada. senyap je. Maybe you find me annoying. And I feel totally rejected. Thanks.

Okay goodbye for now.


aku bersyukur atas apa yang aku ada sekarang, whenever I feel that's something is not enough, I look at those who really need it, for eg. shelter, food and basic necessities that could cover daily usage.

there's a saying goes when a person is capable of having an easy life.

"tangan memberi lebih baik dari tangan yang menerima."

Never look down on those who has disabilities. 

My message for you.

Assalamualaikum :),

kepada kawanku yang dikasihi,

Hari ini saya macam ada hasrat gitu untuk sampaikan sesuatu. Pertama sekali, terpulanglah sekiranya kalau awak hendak menerima atau tidak. 

Saya minta maaf atas segala kekata yang mungkin mengecilkan hati awak,dan perbuatan saya terhadap awak, mahupun sedar atau tidak. Maybe all this while I'm like ignoring you, tend to argue and so on, tetapi wanna know something, from the start I never knew that I'll fall in love with someone. Just that, put aside all those negative things/habits, cause that can be modified.

Nak kata saya risau, memang saya risau. I'm just plain worried, neither answering DMs nor tweeting, it just made me feel uneasy at the end of the day. Maybe I was expecting too much, but it turned out to be the other way round. 

Dulu, awaklah yang selalu ingatkan saya, buat saya gembira.. and so on. And from the bottom of my heart I really appreciate it. :) Tapi sekarang apa kan daya. Allah sedang menuji kita untuk menuju ke jalan yang halal, dan juga diredhai. Mungkin juga tidak kesampaian. 

"Maybe I'm not good enough, or maybe I'm not that well-off. Hmm.. I'm just a normal guy, without "A&F guy" type of body, too kind-hearted, and also have nowhere else to go if I walked till the end of the road; indecisive most of the time. I always forgive people even when the person disowned me."

Lastly,..........................................

the decision is up to you. By any ways, I had no choice but to accept it. 

Thank you for the friendship for the past year or so. 

P/S, you'll be expecting a letter soon. 

___________________________________________________________________________

Wishing on a star

no matter where you are

lalalala budak boring dah tak tahu nak cakap apa lagi....

taknak buat napha boleh.... malas aaaaaah

yay iPhone 5 dah keluar... haha! 

hmmm. kenapa aku tak ada adik beradik byk eh? kdg2 malas pulak nak buat kerja rumah. hehehe. NAK KELUAR JE TAHU EH

mcm nak pergi gardens by the bay lagi... takkan sorg aje.. kan3? ;)

boring seh tiap2 friday kena jual katira.. tapi best jugak kalau dapat duit. hehehehehe. eppp kena ikhlas. 

tak sanggup seh kena reject, walaupun indirect. rhyme tak? hah :)

ok ini last, just my thoughts...

kalau dia terima kita seadanya, ikhlaskan diri kita, sentiasa berasa syukur atas usaha org tu yg terima kita punya kekurangan, kesalahan, dan sebagainya. Hormatilah dia kerana mungkin suatu hari nanti kita tidak akan dapat orang yang sama seperti dia.. mungkin dia tidak sempat untuk perbetulkan kesalahan kita kerana tidak sampai hati untuk menyakitkan hati kita. 

Okay itu sahaja dari saya, segala kebaikan itu adalah daripada Allah, dan segala kesalahan/keburukan itu pada diri saya sendiri. 

Ya Allah Tuhan yang maha kuasa, ampunilah segala dosa kami, selamatkan kami dan keluarga kami dari neraka saqarMu, lindungi kami dari segala dosa yang mungkin akan menyesatkan kami. Ya Allah tunjukkanlah kami ke jalan yang benar ,jalan yang diredhaiMu. "Rabbana aatina fedunya hasanah, wa fel aakhirati hasanah, waqena azhaabannar. Walhamdulillahi rabbil 'alameen."

Sekian, Wassalam.

(sorry kalau bbl cmpur2... hehehe)

Bismillah. It's sunday.

Hmm. Normal week for me. Aaaaand a silent one as well. Except for yesterday. Jalan raya with ex-classmates. Hehehe. That really calmed me down except for the van rental. Nevertheless, everything went well, Alhamdulillah. :)

Felt so different few days ago. lost, no objective for the day, and so on. And I don't know why almost everyone's angry at me. People judge what. Semua benda aku buat macam salah gitu. Berdiam salah, nak argue pun salah. Macam mana nie. Buat bodoh je lah.

Spent most of the time monitoring my granddad, well only by bathing him, and positioning him on the bed.. Otherwise, if it's before exam, revision after that. aaaaaand went back home around evening time..

Sometimes, the situation around me is an eye-opener and made me even realise how 'imperfect' am I in this world. Kdg2 kita tak sadar akan kelebihan yang diberi Allah swt, apabila satu hari ditarik, manusia tersebut akan rasa kesal. Kelebihan dunia membuat manusia terpesong akan kebendaan dan lupa akan dasar sebagai hamba Allah yang hina di muka bumi ni. I always remind myself of being grateful for whatever I'm having right now. Kerana tiada benda yang kekal di alam yang fana' ini.

I've yet to balance out my needs and my intentions. and I should make this clear to myself that what you want, is not what you need. Because most of the time, I can't be too dependent on my parents...

As of today, it's an open house for relatives. Hope that everything will run smoothly Insha'Allah. :)

Permudahkan segala urusanku. Ameen ya Allah.

Hidup ini unik. Penuh seninya. Tidak selalunya berbunga ceria, tidak juga sentiasa berduri bahaya. Selalunya juga apa yang diharap-harap, tidak pula dinikmat rasa. Apa yang hendak dicampak jauh, dikejar-kejar pula menimpa. Lalau jika dihayati sebenarntya, ia penuh dengan warna-warni kehidupan. Bagi alam ciptaan Maha Esa ini, ada kurang disebalik sempurnanya. Dan ada sempurna di celah-celah kekurangannya. 

What I feel today? Inevitable.

Put aside all the insecurities, cause someone just had a chill pill. Nobody puts you into that state of envy-ness until someone did. Hmm thought that this year could be a exciting year to endure with, but it turned out to be otherwise.

Passion has always been the thought for me when I’m in school, learning my favorite subject. But the world does not only revolve around that. Responsibility has been a task for me to endure as I have to take care of many things; currently my paternal granddad.

Friends’ around me. Classmates has been loyal to me since the first week of starting of school term, namely, Faris, Guo Hui, Zachary, Weifeng and Zhen Wei. Whatsapp back then is as quiet as a graveyard. But now, us as a group become quite noisy, with all meme posting and all those stuff. Ex classmates/schoolmates just come and go…. Sometime without notice.

All I know about today is, something that had gone missing. Finding around does not meet the objective, but let it appear on it’s own. It’s back and will continue to haunt me years to come, if I had no chance at all. I know that hoping everything at it’s best won’t turned out to be as expected, but at least, I do make some effort. Maybe it’s indirect. But the strong feeling was truly unavoidable.

Only 3 things , well 4 actually, is currently my weekly cycle.

Family > School > Mosque activities > My own past time

When it comes to school holidays, mosque has been my 2^nd home to spend some time on. Be it religious activities or just chit-chatting (bermanfaat ah haha) . Aside from family issues, I’m still struggling to stand on my two feet.

Ustaz Mahyudin has been the best motivator to me. Even he ain’t the Youth Development Officer at the Mosque anymore, he still care about the organization, which is called syabab. To cut it short, he has been the best advisor for the organization. Priceless moments with him is just, memorable. He’s the one who called me ‘ayat’ apart from my circle of family.

Well, that’s all for me. Throughout this post, there is a hidden message. Got psychic powers?  You just figured that out. HAHA :P till then.

Wow, it’s been awhile since I had a proper blog post. Hehe ;)