I just don't know. How long I could fake a smile. Hmm. Things had never be the same , even if I comprehend the situation that you're facing .

What a productive day.

Here are the pics that I promised myself to upload... :)

Most of it were blurry, so I decided not to upload it. Heh. :D

What a nice 2days away from the hustle and bustle of the city.. It's so peaceful as well.

Well, I can't tell much over here, cause pictures tell a thousand words. lol.

Well,

Malas, malas nak upload gambar. nnt2 je lah.

Lappy nie lah jadi teman aku all the way until now. Almost every night when I switch u on, your mighty beast start to impress me with your not-so-quick boot up timimg. lol...

The neck-wrecked one was kinda pity when I used it for the last time, yesterday.. I had used you for a month plus, well, I have a good time transferring all my files, and then you gone mad. I have no choice but to format it all over again. It's a hassle, but I sometimes do pressure you with many applications working in the background.. But it's just part of my test, even this mighty white beast has it all stable and under control. haha. :)

See, I got alot of things to finish by tomorrow , yet I still can blog? What's wrong with me huh.

I've been somehow expecting one of my close friends coming either last friday, or yesterday, to the extent, even today; nobody turned up. Well never mind, I could understand.

Well, what to do, people are getting busier nowadays, It's like I have no life tweeting/blogging alone here. I just need somewhere/someone to express my emotions. Dah tkde org nak guling. Dah tkde org nak kenekan. Dah tkde org nak bercerita. It's just the serious work that pressures me, walaupun Lillahi Ta'ala.

Anyway, Just an information, the girl used to like me now unblocked me and add me as friend. I chose not to ignore cos I somehow pity her. Well, somehow. lol. But I never liked her at the first place. hah.

Now I've got 2 things to finish by the end of today. Video by noon, cover design by evening. Then probably I'll settle down by Tuesday evening. So, it's all set. Now I'm done here. OH wait, before that, one, final thing to say.

You.

I can't even tell myself how I'm feeling right now. I only kept silent. I was on my way back home. Before that I went to KFC for dinner. alone. How hateful I am being alone most of the time. Yes maybe some times was the best but this was most of the time. A couple stood facing each other, just a place away from my seat. Immediately, I was reminscing our moments that we shared together... Even though it's just close to nothing but it was just, meaningful. I can't help it but to make myself 'cheerful' at that time. Yeah.

See, I've got alot of things to tell.

Eventhough I'm delightful cause I got accepted to the course that I wanted to.. that doesn't mean I'd be happy as a whole. For my future, yes. For myself, maybe, or maybe not. {this whole story in italic sebenarnya copy-paste dari letter, well, some of it. } I just browse through your tweets when I'm on break... It's pretty much the same as what you feel before.

Only that I have to be patient and understand.

Those two are really heavy to put your shoulder on and carry it around. I have to build my courage, just to overcome my depressions.

"kan aku pulak yang kene pujuk ALAHAIS :)"

Last but not least,

"When you finally manage to put a ring on my finger when im older later, then i'll call you my boyfriend. For now, masih tk stable. :)" (5 Nov)

I'll keep that in mind. :)

That's all , nights. Even if it's 2 in the morning.